Back when I was a Jehovah’s Witness, I remember how our family was ostracized and seen as black sheep, because there were so many problems with our family. My mum was avoided by other “sisters” because she fell into depression after the divorce, and was never happy. The children, my brother and I, were avoided by other children who were told by their parents not to “associate with us”, because it was hard for us to be happy given our family circumstances. We were not happy kids, and that made us look like unfaithful children, unfaithful to God, like we were not happy because we weren’t serving God the right way. So they avoided us because according to 1 Corinthians 15:33, “Bad association spoils useful habits.”
In fact it wasn’t just us who were ostracized for being unhappy. I remember that people flocked around those who always looked happy, “serving Jah with whole-heartedness and positive mindsets”. These were seen as the good associates, those who really wanted to serve God. So hanging out with such ones would instantaneously make people look like the good Witnesses.
Those that looked downtrodden were often left alone. Not happy looking, that means not doing something right in the eyes of God la. Sometimes “brothers and sisters” tried their darnedest to mask things by giving such ones “encouragement”, but it was mostly superficial, because our Bible literature said that’s what we should do. But that was about it. To actually talk on a deeper level and truly understand that person? Naahh not gonna happen. Cuz elders never say must do that what. They just said “give them words of encouragement from time to time”.
I’ve been wanting to say this for a long time, but never did. Not for any particular reason, neither was I holding back. But I just didn’t feel compelled to say it. I’d just say it now to wrap 2011 up, before the world ends next year.
FUCK YOU ALL FOR RUINING THE CHILDHOODS OF MY BROTHER AND MINE!
FUCK YOU ALL SELF-RIGHTEOUS PRICKS WHO ARE IN THE ORGANIZATION ONLY FOR THE SAKE OF SOCIAL VALIDATION BECAUSE YOU CAN’T FIND THAT VALIDATION ANYWHERE ELSE IN SOCIETY.
FUCK YOU ALL UNDER ACHIEVING FUCKERS WHO THINK YOU ARE ACHIEVING SOMETHING BY TRYING TO IMPOSE ON OTHERS THAT THE ONLY WAY TO ACHIEVE IN LIFE IS TO SERVE GOD IN THAT ONE AND SAME WAY THAT YOU THINK IS THE ONLY RIGHT WAY TO SERVE GOD.
FUCK YOU ALL FOR TELLING ALL THE CHILDREN THAT WE CAN’T HAVE FRIENDS OUTSIDE THE ORGANIZATION, AND WE LISTEN TO YOUR SAYINGS, ONLY TO BE SHUNNED BY YOU IN RETURN.
FUCK YOU ALL FOR JUDGING, AND LYING THAT YOU ARE NOT JUDGING.
If you could all just use your brains up and think about it, those that look happy are only happy because they feel like they belong. Everybody else looks happy when they’re home, when they’re in a place that they feel they belong to. But it doesn’t necessarily mean that their hearts are pure and good. They’re just getting the social validation that they thirst for. It doesn’t mean that they are wholesome and kind.
Even if they do wholesome and kind deeds, most of them are only doing it because the ELDERS told them to do so. Would they do the same if nobody “encouraged them to do so so that God will favour them”? Honestly? 100% yes? Or no?
Those that don’t look so happy, simply are not of the same wavelength! It doesn’t mean that they are fucken BLACK SHEEP or bad-hearted people. Just not same clique la. Judge what lan jiao? It doesn’t mean that they love God any less, or wanna serve God any less. It doesn’t mean they have bad characteristics!
If you people would just open your eyes, crawl out from under your fucking moss-covered rocks, and take a look at how normal people actually operate, that’s how it is.
I am fucking happy with my music friends, my like-minded friends. But place me in a clique of shopaholics, I’d look like an awkward turtle. That’s just normal human behaviour! Because we have different wavelengths! Not cuz I’m a loser or anything.
If any JW were to read this, I know I’d instantly be condemned as an APOSTATE, in JW terms, the highest form of sin anyone can ever commit.
According to JW law, an apostate is an ex believer who has been influenced by the Devil to intentionally twist the truth and slander the organization in order to sway potential believers and existing believers from joining the faith.
But you know what? I’m just telling the truth straight from my heart.